2021

If consciousness is the sun and sunlight is the stuff of dreams,

then the furthest experience to be known is that which the high priests of scientific materialism call the black hole of the unknown unknown.

Woe are they who do not know I am that.

Happy new year!

Take one. Consciousness is the aura of the absolute's self-awareness.

Take two. Consciousness is the aura of my impersonal self-awareness.

Bonne année!

And as the absolute, I cannot emphasize enough that all is well.

You be you, my love.

Feliz navidad!

This is the key to western paradox. 

From the outside, it looks like fate. 

From the inside, it feels like free will. 

Felix sit annus novus!

There are no sides. There's just belief.

And as belief is disbelieved, belief becomes one-sided. 

Self-righteousness is the antichrist of self-awareness. 

Akeome! Kotoyoro!

Self-awareness is a pre-existing condition.

Shana tova!

Repeat after me,

I am...

unborn .

Year 2525: Take One Every Day

Consciousness is the bridge between the lyrical and silence. Consciousness is the expression of silence. The lyrical is the expression of consciousness. The mind is fine, the movie is groovy, all manner of things shall be well.

Divine imagination is the lyrical mirror of self-awareness. In fact, consciousness is the bridge to nowhere from nothing. Universal consciousness is like a blast of self-awareness in slow motion.

There’s no disease called separation. That’s why it’s called the universe. It’s also called the cure. Take one every day. Some call this Zen meditation. Some call this Christian science. Some call this as it is.

Mindfulness is to lucid dreaming as amfulness is to self-awareness. This is perennial math. This is my lotus. Take, eat, American beauty. Anne Bradstreet is to Jack Kerouac as

the Merrimack from Andover to Lowell. Like Passaconaway to Agawam is as hogan to kiva. The dreamstate doesn’t serve just somebody. It serves the enlightening intent of absolute self-awareness.

The Order of Awareness

Free will is one of the earliest stages of lucid dreaming. Lucid dreaming is an early stage of enlightening intent.

A flower facing the sun is an early stage of instinct and instinct is an early stage of free will and so on.

These are called the seven stages of nondoing. For awareness and self-awareness are one.

Universal consciousness appears in self-awareness. This is the birth of paradox.

If it isn't paradox, it’s myth. The self-reflexive universe is the very model of a modern myth. Let us dream.

Political Garbage

i 

Political extremists, socialist or libertarian, base political theory on people being beautiful.

People are not beautiful. People are garbage, beautiful garbage.

Because people are garbage, governments are created. But all governments are garbage.

Garbage in, garbage out.

ii

There are variations to this theme.

There’s the son of heaven. People are garbage but the leader is beautiful.

There’s hard factionalism. Our side is beautiful. Their side is garbage.

And endless combinations of this utopian garbage.

But ‘we the garbage' is some kind of beautiful genius.

Ode to a Mystic Mountain

There’s either conditioned reaction like a pinball lizard or unconditional love like a mother.

Free will is such a fantasy. One either serves the past or spontaneity.

Everything in the world is in the past, or in the future as the past imagines it.

Every universe is a breath of self-awareness. Who am I? I am the one who’s breathing.

Inhale my eastern hemlock, tamarack, and mountain ash. Exhale my Gulf of Maine.

Why climb mountains? Krishna asked me to.

On Enlightening Intent Mountain

Knowledge needs translation into one’s own knowing. Otherwise, it’s only useless and pointless knowledge.

Translation is the key to one’s conditioning, unlocking that exceptional belief which locks in love.

Memorizing knowledge is like repeating the sounds of words without experiencing them.

Academics footnote every source. Even common mystics know that.

While hiking in the White Mountains, I learned the difference between a topographic map and sudden terrain.

In other words, two paths diverged upon a mountainside, and I took the one I was experiencing.

Hiking any good-sized mountain, you shall meet a wall—it’s called belief.

Neither science nor magic, you just walk through it.

The Righteous Stuff

If emotion is unconditional love filtered by thought, passion is enlightening intent filtered by emotion. 

Love deconstructs emotion. Intent dismantles passion. Logic is to love as passion to intent. Not Humean slaves, but certainly tools.

Emotion is like the first stage of the rocket. Drop thought. Passion is the second stage. Drop emotion. Consummation is the third stage. Drop passion. Self-awareness is the moon.

Memorizing Mantra

To identify with memory or electricity, is the fundamental question of any computer with half-a-mind.

Memory, like everything body-mind, appears in consciousness, like mercury beneath the glass of the mirror.

Memories aren’t facts. Memories are in conspiracy with the dominant memory. They are good disciples.

Trust non-conceptual being only. I am, at the most.

This is the point of every mantra. To memorize my words so they’re beyond all manipulations of memory.

In other words, my daily devotion is the dominant memory now. Mantra is the sound of the satguru!

Mantra is impervious to all disinformation; buy yours now! Look, the first secret of mantra club is mantra is secret. 

Captioning Self-awareness

1.

In a black void called noumenal awareness,

there’s a universe looking like a speech balloon.

In the speech balloon, there’s an utterance, I am.

This cartoon myth is captioned, self-awareness.

2.

Although sudden in reality, self-awareness is a process to the mind.

The process of the self-reflexive universe is made of threes and sevens.

Arthur named the seven, light, nuclear, atomic, molecular, vegetable, animal, dominion.

Maybe call the three, ignorance, knowledge, self-awareness?

Ignorance is like the process of social conditioning.

Knowledge is like experience, belief, and deconstruction.

Self-awareness is the suddenly cloudless mirror.

Amfulness

Giving conscious attention to consciousness is the apocalypse of self-awareness.

If mindfulness is loving attention to mind (concepts, things),

then loving attention to consciousness (the immaculate conception, being) is consciousnessfulness.

Or beingfulness for short? Isfulness, amfulness, artfulness in Olde English. Thatfulness? Names are not the point but people need a name to point to.

Mindfulness before amfulness. Amfulness is that fullness. That fullness of thatfulness is absolute.

Amfulness ascends from mindfulness. Mindfulness is the antidote to mindlessness. Amfulness is omega spacetime.

Beyond amfulness is noumenal territory. There, the absolute unknown is the law.

Amfulness is the unconditional love of being.

As mindfulness is an antidote as all deconstruction is, amfulness is the height of health. Amfulness is thatfulness

The last bright golden leaves of mid-November do not float like fall but plummet—as if the winter ground of gravity resumes it’s absolute dominion over all expression suddenly.

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that which is aware of consciousness is awareness.

awareness is the primary witness of consciousness only. 

consciousness is a secondary witness, as that awareness is reflecting in consciousness. 

let's call this secondary witness, attention, attending to appearances of mind.

one can say there's a tertiary witness called dreaming but it's practically asleep.

Swan River

Consciousness is both beginning and end simultaneously.

Space-time appears in consciousness. Believing otherwise is the primal error of all scientific religions.

Mind is the lens like a mirror. Consciousness is manifest glass like a crystal universe. I am the eye of absolute awareness like evolutionary self-awareness.

Stop! This experiential awareness is what I’m pointing at.

It has no name but being is its image.

It has no form but crystalline is its reflection.

It has no substance but unfathomable is its heart.

By the way, I saw two infinite swans on the river today slowly floating upstream as the tide was coming in.

footnotes

1. whereby consciousness is manifest potentiality

2. as one’s body appears in consciousness, one can’t be the body, obviously.

3. the seer seeing the seer is the seeing

4. ZEN SLAP!

5. consciousness is talking to consciousness re-identifying with consciousness

6. and the sun is nothing but a crystalline black hole

7. universal consciousness tastes like unconditional love

8.

"Moon river, wider than a mile

I’m crossing you in style some day 

Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker 

Wherever you’re goin’, I’m goin’ your way"

~Mancini & Mercer

endnotes

using the mind one-pointedly in some creative action, the body disappears. this is called instant karma. it's the healing principle behind true christian science.

i was in hopi pueblo at tsakurshovi where they sell the don't worry be hopi t-shirts and joe day asks me where i come from and the mary baker eddy house is our common language. back home, it wouldn't let me take a picture for him saying don't worry he understands.

if the body is like a lens made out of glass, be the glass. if the glass is like the eye of parabrahman, be that.

experiential awareness is absolute awareness reflecting in consciousness. zen exclamation point. beyond is nirvikalpa samadhi. but don't you worry about that.

now is no thought. here is no dis-ease.

if identification with the body is the root of pain, take the tantric pill. if identification with the mind is the root of suffering, take the deconstruction one. this is the buddha encapsulated.

Self-awareness and the Proper Use of Tools

A tool is never a problem. Misusing a tool may be an issue. And identifying with a tool will lead to a world of hurt. So get a grip on yourself.

Without the mind, there is no realization, self-awareness, or reflexive universe. Give it some love.

The mind is just the mirror. It’s the steam of consciousness mistaking ones identity obscuring things.

The last refuge of that misidentity called ego is in minimizing mind and thereby halting neti-neti deconstruction.

Consciousness is talking to consciousness. This is why there’s something called mind training and the proper use of hand tools.

As consciousness is the expression of the absolute noumenon, and divine imagination is the expression of consciousness, evolutionary sudden self-awareness is the expression of divine imagination.

Footnotes:

The mind is a tool to be used with love. Love is the hand of being. Being is the heart of self-awareness. Self-awareness is a feature of absolute awareness.

The mind is like a shiny car.

Consciousness identifying with the mirror. Been there.

Sleep blames the dream.

Like Zen and the art of looking in a mirror.

The self of awareness + the mirror of divine imagination = self-awareness.

The Point of Nonduality

Cause and effect is the dreamstuff of the dream state. And manipulating dreamstuff is the art of lucid manifestation. Empires and other cults of personality are formed around such shamans of dreaming. Politics is all about the kind of Kool-Aid one prefers.

Lucid dreaming without love is not lucid dreaming. Lucid dreaming without love is just expert dreaming. True love is the only fact in any universe. Anything but love is the dreamstuff of duality, romantic but only truth is beauty.

The dream is not real but dual. Being is real—that is the point of nonduality. Do not mistake one's being for experience. Let's say being is the music, experience records the music, and memory plays the recording like a dream. The recording stops and not the music.

Mapping Self-Awareness

A funny thing happens on the way to self-awareness. This axe of thought begins to think that it's the hand which wields it.

This fall of intentional tool to chaotic weapon is comic from the point of view of the hand of the heart but tragic as seen through the eye of the weapon.

Separation is the weapon. Division is the ammunition. The universe is the target. Compassion is the witness. Love is acting for the defense. There's nothing wrong with the tool. 

Primordial conditioning sharpens it. Self-awareness requires a razor's edge. That the mind is conditioned from the big beginning to usurp the absolute proves its innocence.

Divine imagination is the mythical map of kundalini thunder emanating from the mystical lightning of the absolute black whole.

footnotes

I like dreaming. I love waking up.

Consciousness is the only knowledge. Only the unknown knows this.

There is no self-awareness without the molecular structure of pink cadillac granite.

Mind and no mind. Manifest and unmanifest. Knowledge and knowing.

The power of three. Positive, negative, and neutral. Love, compassion, and forgiveness.

Prescription 2020

Deconstruction is the negative. Love is the positive. The absolute is neutral. Don’t fall in love with the negative. Don’t disintegrate the positive. Look, this never happened.

Cherry blossoms fall. Get over it. An emerald hummingbird! Don’t overthink it. Space-time is the stuff of dreams and self-awareness is the greatest show on earth.

The narcissistic nihilist with a knife in the dining room is your clue. Surrealistic pillow is the soundtrack. Absolute-awareness being self-aware.

Whether one calls this the holy trinity, trimurti, or some other power of three doesn’t matter. It’s spontaneous.

Psychological deconstruction is like lighting a fuse. Get it started. Then step away as soon as possible.

Myth or any other guided meditation is there to be your runway only to consciousness only.

Believing consciousness is a product of the brain is the greatest virus ever told.

64 hexagrams of the I-Ching. 64 codons of DNA. Zero gravity.

Thorn of Belief

If you believe in materialism, you’ll believe in anything. If you believe in a personal god, you believe in materialism. 

Whether it’s religious materialism or scientific materialism or esoteric materialism, it’s all materialism. 

Thought is utilitarian. But belief itself is materialistic. Thought deals in transformation. Belief deals in form.

The more belief one is entertaining, the less wisdom one is contemplating. I used to believe but I’m younger than that now. 

One deconstructs belief with wise thought. Throw away that thorn of belief. But you can share this thorn of thought.

Focusing Consciousness

Consciousness before sensation, before imagination, before identification. Being before before and after.

Like a lens is glass ground from glass, the mind is consciousness ground from consciousness.

Absolute awareness is reflecting in consciousness. The mind is focusing awareness into self-awareness.

There are seven evolutionary stages. The first is light. Two, nuclear probability of particle and wave. Atomic identity is three.

The great turn is in the fourth sub-stage of the fourth molecular stage as organic chemicals and sex hormones come into separate being.

Vegetable, animal, human: in the big picture, consciousness is focusing consciousness.

Appointment at Long Sands

Not exactly like the summer of love, the summer of 2020 is more the summer of compassion.

After deconstructing a continent of the personal, one comes to the sea of compassion.

Appointment at Long Sands: either sail into the unknown or return to disappointment.

Note one sails into the unknown on the sea of compassion. Nihilism is materialism in more ways than none.

Without compassion, one is nothing. Compassion is the eye of the needle. Compassion takes a lifetime; money can't buy you love.

Compassion processes emotion seeing through the clouds of belief occluding self-awareness. Note emotions come in waves. 

Pure awareness may be unspeakable, but I can't say enough about compassion.

Rhapsody in Two

Sexual energy isn’t bad. Thinking it’s bad is unnatural. After all, the first sign of duality is one identifying with a gender.

After the root has taken hold, the priesthood of conditioning grabs you by the sacral chakra and so the heart becomes deformed.

Fighting one's conditioning is still conditioning. This is the dirty little secret of the empire’s priesthood. 

Seeing through conditioning is the only revolution. This is ultimately called turn, turn, turn. Or awakening.

Whether it's fundamental religion, scientific materialism, or new age magic, stop believing in your latest meta-paradigm.

And follow the bliss of this intentional kundalini to that enlightenment of self-awareness!

They say it's the end of August and time to put away all childish things. But Lord, I was never born. 

The leaves will drop but trees remain. An oak will fall in the forest but the planet abides. 

The earth is ground away but the sun still shines. A star collapses in an absolute black hole and I am that.