In Self-Defense of Mind (A5)

"Any role you play is you but you are not the role. If you take the role as yourself, that is okay. But if you take yourself as the role, the role and you are rolled into one. Then you are confused." ~Dayananda

It’s not that I’m this individual self not knowing I’m the Absolute, but I’m the Absolute, ignorant of my Self. Hamlet owns bad actors. The great actor owns Hamlet. In the Gita, Arjuna is the bad actor, Krishna is the great one.

The producers wanted Sully-era Hanks for Krishna and the Good-Will-Hunting Damon for Arjuna. The director insisted on the Dog-Day-Afternoon Pacino for the bad one. Obviously Zorba-era Quinn for the great one, or get yourself another director.

In attention, thought is like the bad actor and awareness is the Absolute One. Lately, I’m always coming back to this True Math of mine. Like the end of A Day in the Life on original vinyl.

It goes like this: A=a-t; t=(i²=−1)=Maya. This attention is another name for the I Am. Thought is the totality of ignorance. Awareness minus thought is Self-Luminous Consciousness. Isn't Brahman also Atman?

Without the mind, there’s no deconstruction. Without deconstruction, there’s no self-awareness. Without self-awareness, there’s no awareness. And that’s absolutely absurd. This is why paradox needs the mind. And Maya too.

One Consciousness Under Nonduality (A4)

i.

Beyond the superimpositions placed upon the truth by ignorance, there is self-evident consciousness. This is not nothing. And there is nothing prior to this consciousness. This self-shining consciousness is the absolute.

The so-called consciousness which is not indestructible, everlasting, and absolute, is conceptual consciousness, or the concept of individual existence. This is just another superimposition placed upon the truth of self-evident consciousness, absolute awareness.

This conceptual consciousness is like an ember of true consciousness covered in the soot of superimpositions. For this reason, it’s not a bad place for beginners to begin.

Behind the snake, the rope is always burning. Breathe on it long enough and the flame appears to blaze again in all its glory. It never isn’t!

Thus deconceptualized consciousness is universal consciousness, or what I really am. Further, I am That, and that is the absolute truth, the absolute nondual truth.

ii.

individual consciousness appears to be within, because of all the concepts covering consciousness itself. so universal consciousness appears to move outwards, like non-conceptual attention from out of the blue.

some call this individual consciousness, i am. but it's actually what i think i am, or even more absurd, what i think i possess. but beneath such superimposition of possession is consciousness itself, myself, free

a materialist may believe the body-mind produces consciousness, and thus this consciousness is owned by its producer. but little do they know that consciousness is indeed 'possessed' as in possessing all, for all appears in consciousness. cue the diabolical laughter of the guru.

some call this individual consciousness, the jiva. some say this is the entity which reincarnates, which is an appropriate concept for a concept. and this is the consciousness to which consciousness is talking.

the myth goes something like this: universal consciousness is talking to individual consciousness, saying concentrate on the consciousness within your individual consciousness; that in fact is universal consciousness, and by the transitive property of the direct path, that.

Gita Gone

2.11. The humanist speaks wisely, arjuna. But fortunately for you, you’re not a human.

12. I was never not myself. Nor y’all too. We will never not be.

13a. As the sleep dream doesn’t know the waking dream, the waking dream doesn’t know the waking consciousness state. 

13b. An unconscious mind dreaming is a nightmare. An unaware consciousness dreaming is samsara. Reincarnation is on so many levels. Sudden enlightenment has no levels.

14. All pop sensations are impermanent, arjuna. But we’re a classic.

15. Like mary baker eddy.

16. The unreal isn’t, and the real isn’t isn’t. that’s for sure, says jesus.

17. If maya’s creation is pervaded by brahman, and vishnu is indestructible, even isvara can’t destroy itself, sings krishna.

18. Only dreams die. The dreamer doesn’t. come on, you know this. Says krishna to arjuna.

19. You’re neither doer nor the done, free will or fatalism. Everything appears in you, including cause and effect, says krishna to arjuna.

20. Unborn, immortal, perpetually being, consciousness lives, says krishna to frodo.

21. The one who knows the dream is the dreamer, says consciousness to consciousness.

22. just as old clothes are thrown away, a snake will shed its skin. inbetween dreams, the rope is just a rope.

23. 

not this one, the mind divides.

fire cannot burn itself.

waves do not inform the sea. 

the wind can't move the changeless."

24.

consciousness is never cut.

consciousness is never cooked.

consciousness is never masticated.

consciousness is never consumed.

indestructible, pervading, changeless,

consciousness eats you.

25.

this is nonsensical.

this is unbelievable.

this is impossible.

knowing this is inevitable.

26.

being is unborn.

believing is dying.

one is beyond such space-time, grasshopper.

do not anthropomorphize consciousness.

27.

being born is busy dying.

busy dying is being born.

who's to say what's cause or what's effect?

do not cry, arjuna.

x. if brahman reflecting in maya is isvara, and brahman pervading maya is vishnu,

y. brahman loving maya is krishna.

That's Nonduality (Third Aumanandada)

The not-real depends upon the real, but the real does not depend upon the not-real. The real is different than the not-real, but the not-real is not different than the real. Because there is no difference, there is nonduality.

Isvara is the reflection of Brahman in Maya. Vishnu is pervasion of Brahman in the universe. There are still no names for Brahman.

Neither is consciousness/awareness, intelligence, and bliss, the attributes of Brahman but its essential nature. As unconsciousness/unawareness, ignorance, and sorrow is the nature of the world.

That I am That, Atman is Brahman, universal consciousness is absolute awareness, is the great revelation, the faithful transmission, and the experiential confirmation. Pass it on.

footnotes

a nihilist is someone overdosing on deconstruction. it's like they've traded one belief for its polar opposite belief. but a religion is a religion is a religion. you really gotta believe in nothing, because it's absolutely impossible to be.

every god is just a single facet of the infinite rainbow diamond absolute brahman, and every god has one-hundred-eight names for oneself. you are one of them.

to Brahman the aware, Brahman the intelligent, Brahman the blissful one; Brahman the eagle-eyed, Brahman the lion-hearted, Brahman the smiling cheshire one; Brahman of Satcitananda!

finally, there is a jesus christ in vedanta. it's called tat tvam asi.

Heart of Lightness (2 Aumanandada)

i.

Reality is not nihilistic. Reality is not unenlightened. And reality is not unhappy.

Paraphrasing Emily. I’m real. Who are you? Are you – real – too? Then there’s a pair of us!

There are no words for the supreme absolute. But satcitananda is the original postmodern deconstruction.

ii.

The universe, is what the new age calls Isvara. But universal consciousness by any other name still has no name.

I too have no name except the one my loving parents give me. Thus by the transitive property of myth, I am That.

Or if Isvara is the reflection of Brahman in Maya, who am I?

iii.

I am awareness. Awareness is attention minus thought. Thought is everything I’m not.

My absolute existence is naturally intelligent. Call it intuition.

Knowledge is bliss in the mind. Sex is bliss in the body. Love is bliss in the heart of lightness.

footnotes

iv.

if the truth isn't paradoxical, then it isn't truth.

as the mind appears in consciousness, and as the smaller never knows the greater, the mind depends on intuition for the truth. the language of intuition is naturally paradoxical.

v.

not understanding

the language of intuition is paradoxical

is the main cause of that disease 

we call religion

vi.

i truly love how advaita gives paradox a name and then calls it a day. like first koan is best koan, maya. thanks for the anti-memory.

all projection is impermanent

IMPERMANENCE IS AN APPEARANCE IN EXISTENCE

vii.

welcome to the revelation station.

no luggage is allowed beyond the yellow line.

viii.

paradox is the yellow line. her name is maya.

ix.

these are her latest affirmations. i am not nothing. i am not unenlightened. i am not at war with myself.

x.

awareness equals attention minus time. attention equals awareness plus time. time equals attention minus awareness.

First Aumanandada

First, despite all theories of big neuroscience, consciousness is not a product of the body-mind. Such belief is just as much a cloud to understanding yourself as is any fundamentalist religion or psychological superego. Is not consciousness ‘itself’ primal? Inquire within.

Second, understanding yourself is not a matter of belief. In fact, disattaching from all thought, including the foundational one of egoic identification, is the basic practice of spiritual deconstruction, and an integral component of self-inquiry.

Third, this understanding is ‘experiential’ for lack of a better common word, closer to one’s experience of real love than any thought or action ever encountered. This is being. This is soul. This is consciousness. This is atman.

Fourth, this consciousness is the absolute godhead. This being is awareness. This atman is brahman. There’s nothing further. Brahman is samadhi. I always am that. Nonduality isn’t rocket science.

Fifth, this is my latest practice. It’s almost mathematical. a) Pay attention with full cognition. To pay means this attention is outgoing. This practice is neither inner meditation nor just sitting. b) Drop cognition. c) Attention minus cognition equals awareness.

footnotes

beyond affirmation and negation is the space of consciousness-awareness-bliss.

there’s nothing wrong with pleasure. mistaking pleasure for happiness sucks.

to be real, one must live outside the law of physics.

all change is unreal. the real is changeless. no one knows how the real becomes unreal. they call it maya. but a koan by any other name is still a paradox.

i drive a car. i know my body-mind is not the car. I drive a body-mind. i know the body-mind is not myself.

not knowing the body-mind is a tool, I believe I am the tool. god it hurts.

bhagavad gita english advaita wise

what should a poor arjuna do? so many english gitas!

first, if we're talking the gita with shankara's commentary (bhasya), there's really only two. gambhirananda or warrier.

second, if we're talking modern advaita vedanta commentary, we're basically talking chinmayananda or dayananda.

last, for sanskrit translation in particular, there's the sargent. and for an advaitin transcreation, there's the jacobs. other than that, there's like ten thousand others.

lastly, there's the nikhilananda, which may be all of the above.

to clarify, as for english gitas, advaita-wise more or less, there's seven: gambhirananda, warrier, chinmayananda, dayananda, nikhilananda, jacobs, and sargent.

Ode to Awareness

Supreme attention is attention without thought. Attention without thought is unadulterated awareness.

Awareness is like the sea if the sea is the heart. And awareness is like the sky if awareness is the eye.

Awareness is the rope, the double-helix of nonduality. And thought is the snake, the superimposition.

Awareness is the godhead and awareness is the soul. Awareness is brahman and atman is awareness.

Awareness is consciousness without a doubt. But we already know that, don't we, awareness?

footnotes

ATTENTION is about as experiential as one can get. and attention without thought is about as equally non-experiential. beginning at the beginning to end in the timeless is the real art of maya.

all metaphors come in twos, vehicle and tenor. the vehicle is like the finger and the tenor is the moon. the third part of a metaphor is always paradox. it's the unsung which the tenor sings.

some talk about the rope and some don't. ain't no thang.

awareness is the ground, the movie screen, the open field in which the child, space-time, is now appearing.

the last math, the final point. if attention minus thought equals the absolute godhead of brahman awareness, then attention plus deconstruction equals that as well. but who am i to say?

dedicated to ulladu narpadu

Deluxe Imagination

i.

From out of the deep

Arises the dream,

From out of the dream

Arises the scream

From dream time

Waking in space.

ii.

There’s no real borderline

Between the dreamtime in sleep

And the dreamtime in space–

All dreamtime is

Gradual enlightenment.

iii.

The noumenal

Reality

Of absolute

Awareness is

Spontaneously

Self-aware

And the essence

Of self-awareness

Smells like dreamtime

iv.

From out of material ignorance comes the green scream of aha!

—it’s just a dream my maya dreamed one afternoon.

footnotes

between  dream  time  and  space  

is the scream of a newborn baby

like paradox is the stuff of myth 

and myth is the stuff of maya

NIRVANA SMELLS LIKE SAMSARA

haiku to duality and beyond!

deconstruction

indication

koan

dedicated to olson, earl of gloucester and lux, the revelator

Ode to Twosday

i.

After the rock of deep sleep and the ripe vegetation of the sleeping dream, the dreamlike awareness of the dream awaking is like a great hallucination to universal consciousness.

In such living color, consciousness, of course, identifies with the amazing body-mind. Wouldn’t you? Now, it is seeing through its error of its being it, just because it hurts.

Not to mention, in America, there’s still a thing called public education, with its disciplines of reading, writing, history, geography, and rhythm & blues.

ii.

After modern education is postmodern deconstruction. In India, they call this learning neti neti. It’s one of the two designed usages for the tool of mind.

The second honest usage of the mind is called indication, or pointing. It’s basically consciousness talking to consciousness in simple metaphor, or maybe charades!

The third and double-secret usage of the mind is called paradox, koan, maya. You read it here first. That the permanent appears to be impermanent is one trick pony.

footnotes

lately it's like if advaita vedanta is the sea in which the ten-thousand foot wave of nisargadatta maharaj appears, then sign me up.

the genius of gaudapada is in seeing that the waking dream is just another state of consciousness, as is deep sleep and the sleeping dream, and not consciousness, the fourth, the force, only.

before self-awareness is self-consciousness. before self-consciousness is the inorganic molecular rock of ignorance and it's evolving organization.

all poetry is just three chords and the truth. all truth is deconstruction and its revelation.

that deconstruction is one of the two legitimate uses of the mind indicates a certain kind of clairvoyance, or what arthur m. bell calls "the dependence of seventh substages on the next highest stage." paradox, koan, and maya, oh my!

it is said when consciousness points at consciousness, the fool looks at consciousness. who says that?