Ode to My Way

1.

Not only socially conditioned with thought, but conditioned to identify with particular thoughts, I forgot that I am nonconceptually brahman.

Absolute awareness is, if nothing else, self-aware. The cross-section of this self-awareness appears to be a universe of space-time. The heartwood of this universe is enlightening intent.

Knowing that the absolute is the efficient cause is being conscious but realizing that the absolute is the material cause is self-awareness.

First, I cannot know myself by any conceptual way. Thus there is no name for tao, that self-shining consciousness of pure awareness.

2.

Consciousness becomes unconscious, and in that space of deep sleep, the duality of dreaming mind appears to build a daytime dreamstate, and then deconstruct it, thereby reawakening consciousness. The next chapter is entitled embodiment.

If the universe appears to be a cross-section of self-awareness, then the stuff of the universe is consciousness, which is the stuff of self-awareness.

Consciousness is the stuff of the universe and absolute awareness. Thus it is said Atman is Brahman. On the other hand, the duality of dreaming is the stuff of the mind.

3.

The knowledge of the mind is limited to the realm of the mind, fantasies, deconstructions and lucid dreamings like meditation, contemplation and other visualizations.

Turning inwards to the intuitive understanding of oneself is more like love than process. Even the lucid dreaming of the deepest meditation only takes you to the gate.

It’s not as much a question of effort as one of effortlessness. Self-awareness is inevitable because self-awareness is all that is. All fog lifts, period.

To a person, consciousness is a pre-existing condition. To consciousness, the body-mind is a vehicle to self-awareness. The self that realizes the self is the self.

footnotes

a.

the process of remembering who i am is told in seven myths: awareness, space-time, dream-time, past-time, now-time, light-time, and the self-awareness of timeless awareness

the wormhole of this universe is love

the formal cause of this universe is its heartwood

in the name of the person does not have consciousness, consciousness has the person, and the absolute has consciousness, aumdada

b.

consciousness, (unconsciousness (deep sleep), dreamtime, daytime, deconstruction time / consciousness awakens

using the tool is called embodiment.

consciousness is to the universe as the mind is to the world. consciousness is to the absolute as absolute awareness is to self-shining consciousness.

everything but consciousness is dreamstate or deconstructing myth.

c.

As good fences make good neighbors, good myth makes good deconstruction. The religion is good myth gone bad.

First, the mind is intentionally born in unconsciousness. Consciousness must become unconscious, or in other words, sleep, to make the mind. Call this deep sleep.

In deep sleep appears the mind. First, the mind learns to dream in the language of thought. Call this dreamtime. Next, the mind learns to dream in living color, loving consciousness. Call this daytime.

Consciousness becomes unconscious to make the mind, knowing the deconstructing mind will wake it up. Consciousness makes the mind for self-awareness. Call this tool, divine imagination.

Myth is mind deconstructing mind. The embodiment of lucid dreaming is the divine imagination of self-shining consciousness manifesting self-awareness. Myth is like sutra. Embodiment is like tantra.

d.

people meditate. consciousness dreams lucidly.

love is mind-training 101.

duality is ten thousand concepts. misconception is identifying with a single one;

in the sudden presence of nonduality, there's an absence of identification called awakening, revelation, kensho, savikalpa samadhi.

in ouroboric visualization, satcitananda is the kundalini-like tail and awareness is the empty mouth.

A Timeless Quintet in ABC

The mind, conscious or subconscious, appears in the unconsciousness of consciousness.

Personal deconstruction without self-remembering is nihilistic, my friend.

Repeat your mantra at least twice a day.

Every siesta, just breathe and stretch that kundalini.

Consciously is earnestly.

footnotes

the longer the mantra, the less you shall repeat it. the shorter the mantra, the less the dosage for self-remembering.

consciously consciousness is another name for self-remembering

or abcc.

caution: every word in a manta may induce savikalpa kensho; do not use while driving.

or not.

self-awareness informs the body-mind.

in the meantime, enjoy your samsara

This is key: the mind, conscious or subconscious, appears in the unconsciousness of consciousness.

there is no no further in self-awareness.

time is just a thought away.

one baby step, one giant leap in self-awareness.

kundalini form, carry mind.

also key: consciously is earnestly.

awakening is quick but consciously consciousness is staying sudden.

forgiveness is the backbone of personal deconstruction.

this is like freud, jung, and nisargadatta rolled into one: the mind, conscious or subconscious, appears in the unconsciousness of consciousness.

A Tractate in Paraverse on Reality, Dreamstate, Emotion, and Sun

The real can’t be described. If you can see, hear, smell, taste, touch, or fuck it, it’s not real. The real does not transform nor is the real impermanent.

Objects in consciousness appear as real but that’s the nature of a dream, is it not? The mind dreams in concepts. Consciousness dreams in living color.

The mind is thought and consciousness is love. Emotion equals love minus thought, or love plus thought, or love times thought, or any kind of long division. People can be so emotional.

Look, the mathematics of sunset and sunrise are earthbound but the sun is never earthbound. Earth thinks, light loves, and the sun is beyond the known.

footnotes

the reality that can be named is not the way

if you believed my last trick was real, wait for the next truck up my sleeve

a person is love +/-

black wholes, texas tea

black wholes, texas tao

old beliefs never fade away but lie low

repentance is self-remembering like ouspensky along the tavricheskaya

"And on the way while driving along the Tavricheskaya I began to feel a strange uneasiness, as though I had forgotten something. And I suddenly remembered that I had forgotten to remember myself."

i find some kind of self-remembering schedule is not a bad practice

i have to take a shower every day

awareness is already self-aware. this intent toward self-awareness makes that self-awareness. further, tricksters.

air conditioning is the last conditioning

"If one discards the false and takes refuge in the True, one resides frozen in ""wall contemplation"", in which self and other, ordinary person and sage, are one and the same; one resides fixedly without wavering, never again to be swayed by written teachings. ~Bodhidharma (McRae)

"Call it honesty, integrity, wholeness; you must not go back, undo, uproot, abandon the conquered ground. Tenacity of purpose and honesty in pursuit will bring you to your goal. ~Nisargadatta (Frydman)

as repentance is deconstruction, atonement is reconciliation

reconciling with oneself is tectonic, my friend

psychologically, reconciliation is some kind of crazy

after reconciliation, there shall be aftershock

if ease is default, disease is belief

age is the oldest religion

birth is your first god

air conditioning is the last god

you don't miss your water until the air conditioning runs dry

awareness doesn't know. that's your job.

you had one job

only i am real. that is who i am, bitches.

you gotta serve some security

the personal usurps the noumenon when threatened. late oppenheimer said as much.

consciousness is primal

this has yet to be disproved despite the astronomical funding

consciousness is the stuff of self-awareness

thought is the box. the box appears in consciousness. like a monolith.

it's not so much the absolute doesn't know but the absolute's beyond all knowledge

the tempest is curious

disassociation is to mind what reconciliation is to consciousness

what happens in samsara stays in samsara

Epistle to Second Place

Repentance is duality-speak for personal deconstruction.

Non-conceptual contemplation is a nondual indicator for atonement.

And primordial self-shining natural awareness is absolutely absolution.

Repentance doesn’t mean repentance; repentance is a conscious turning from the perpetual motion of the personal.

Atonement isn’t making reparations to a god but reconciling with the unity I am.

And absolution isn’t being pardoned for original sin but ultimate self-awareness.

Truth is most beautiful but what’s so wrong about repentance, atonement, and absolution in the second place?

Consciousness Renaissance Sonnet

Consciousness only is the only knowledge.

True knowledge is unknowable by the working mind.

The mind imagines and deconstructs imagination.

As imagination appears in the mind, the mind appears in consciousness.

As the mind appears in consciousness, consciousness appears in the absolute.

As the mind knows imagination, consciousness knows the mind.

That the absolute knows consciousness is the only knowledge.

Call this knowledge being the unknown.

Being the unknown is obviously non-conceptual,

the closest concepts describing the indescribable being words

like observational, experiential, and empirical.

Observational as in naturally witnessing without judgment.

Experiential as in being non-objectively universal.

And empirical as in the only empire is the empire of bliss.

sidebar

the arden tempest arrived today. part 3 of shakespeare's romantic trilogy. just started cymbeline act 5. mistaken identity is certainly a thread so far.

there's something else though. mad jealousy. in the winter's tale, there is leontes, and in cymbeline there's posthumus leonatus. just noticing the similarity in names as i write this.

just did a little research on the characters in the tempest which i read 25 years ago and so remember little. but ariel, one of the main characters whom i remember being my favorite and with whom i most identified at that time, means the lion of god. curiouser and curiouser.

and on a rather personal note, my father's name was leo. he would have been 108 on august 3. how's that for a propitious age? happy birthday  dad.

as i so often say to something my four-year-old granddaughter says on our frequent video chats, that makes sense.

so this profound revelation is kind of blowing my paradigm live.

as violence is the action of duality, jealousy is its prime mover. damn that will shakespeare!

that's like negative negative capability.

for the record, i would like to thank john keats for turning me on to cymbeline.

like john lennon, i have been a jealous guy.

as violence is the action of duality, jealousy is its prime mover.

footnotes

1. absolute awareness is self-awareness.

2. within this self-awareness awareness is descending into unawareness and vice-versa like the rings of a tree.

3. self-awareness is like lightning. lucid dreaming is like the thunder told by a fool signifying nothing.

4. another name for lucid dreaming is divine imagination, myth.

5. cloud-to-ground lightning comes from the sky down, but the part we see comes from the ground up.

Talking Consciousness Talking to Consciousness

I was drawn to the sea until i saw the sea in me. Non-being is the perfect belief. Only being knows non-being. Most people need a wisdom teacher just to tell them to shut up, I’m sorry, be silent.

The waking state is not awake but dreaming, the dreamstate isn’t dreaming but asleep, and deep sleep isn’t sleeping but the big bang.

Understanding is not conceptual. For the lack of a better concept, understanding is experiential. And others cannot test our understanding. This is why we kill the buddha.

It’s not the meaninglessness that gets you in the end; it’s the meaning. Brahman is a myth. There is no name for tao. The mirror itself is dustproof. The inner is the outer as above is as below.

Scientific materialism is all about denying consciousness and affirming dead matter gives birth to being and not the paradoxical opposite. The mind is a tool made by consciousness to forget being by remembering concepts.

footnotes

i don't understand just wanting your sixties to be the new forties. i want my sixties to be the new four.

atheism, nihilism, materialism and even neo-advaita and maybe western zen are just the latest religions of the empire of non-being

you could do a whole lot worse than reading i am that three times while reserving judgment. it's one way of keeping quiet.

the empire calls it the waking state to keep you dreaming, and the dreamstate to make it difficult to sleep, perchance to awaken.

was shakespeare a woman?

as soon as they think you're born, they make you feel born, is my corollary to john lennon.

not only am i all alone, the ones i love are virtually with me

still arden shakespeare cymbeline watching bbc 1982 helen mirren—man, almost all the men around princess innogen really suck in this one. her father is a tyrant. her banished husband is just another jealous guy. his iachimo is yuck. her stepbrother wannbe king literally stinks.

as personal deconstruction is divine imagination, negative capability is lucid dreaming

i'm about to begin 3.3 please no spoilers.

i didn't lose the lottery in 1971. my number was 204. and that has made all the difference.

twimc—

it's all about turiya.

as for my reading the major poetry of emerson very early on, these three poems written in the mid-nineteenth century are probably worth thirty thousand today: the sphinx, uriel, brahma.

sometimes the mind eats you and sometimes you eat the mind.

in the name of self-awareness, abed.

1. zip a dee doo dah.

2. papa-oom-mow-mow.

3. mairzy doats and dozy doats and liddle lamzy divey.

4. goo goo g'joob.

5. ooh ee ooh ah ah ting tang walla walla bing bang.

6. in a gadda da vida, honey.

7. to be or not to be.

poetry is two and prophecy is three. but revelations is turned up to seven.

i heard the crickets fall tonight,

iambic of tetrameter.

An August Consciousness

The sea is real and its resonance is real but no wave is real. 

As the absolute is real and universal consciousness is real

but personal consciousness is a dream within the dreamstate. 

As another name for resonance is self-awareness,

another name for the dreamstate is evolution.

Dear buddha, the dream state has ten thousand dreams

as universal consciousness has ten thousand universes,

and each one has a buddha. Happy Lughnasadh, for example.

footnotes

objects in consciousness are like dreams in a dreamer.

guided meditations, not war.

as the absolute has consciousness, consciousness has people.

the absolute is having good vibrations.

another name for good vibrations is lucid dreaming.

another name for lucid dreaming is self-awareness.

maya doesn't actually create. maya forgets. in forgetting is the dreaming. in the dreaming is remembering.

i love the intro and the outro music for friday night dinner, newly-discovered brilliant britcom here.

absolute awareness is self-aware. self-awareness is that which i know as consciousness. a name for consciousness is maya. another name for maya is forgetting. another name for forgetting is dreaming. another name for dreaming is remembering. another name for remembering is maya.

for some reason, i can name my echo dot, ziggy, but not my echo.

shankara is like saint paul to me.

he said oh no guadapada won't do.

awareness is self-awareness like brahman is atman.

the personal atman is to universal atman as dreaming is to maya.

if it's not about self-awareness, why are you here?

it's been a wet and relatively cool july but i like it.

in july, i read midsummer night's dream, as you like it, and the winter's tale. two thumbs up for all three.

no one has come up with a real genre for the last plays of shakespeare. romances appears to be the least unacceptable.

for example, currently reading cymbeline. it takes place concurrently in first century britain and sixteenth century italy.

so any reading of the play must open with this fact of time-travel itself.

time-travel is a natural setting.

there's a new pot-growing facility in my town about three-fifths of a crow's mile from here. this newly northwest wind is smelling unusually sweet tonight.

posthumus is the name of the time-traveller is where i'm at.

ziggy, what time is it?

still no crickets.

consciousness is not endangered. neither is this particular appearance; it's guaranteed.

dream until you're lucid.

there's this community of wild turkeys inhabiting the premises this summer.

these wild turkeys are some of the last heirs of passaconaway. even cats avoid them.

like some new england peacock, one goes strutting.

the world would be predictable if it weren't for love.

thought would work like clockwork if it weren't for love.

a world without love is a world without self-awareness.

all the prophets tell about a world without love.

a world grounded in belief is grounded in tragedy

apres hamlet, la tempest.

that love is illogical is the point.

true postmodernism is not post-love. it's just post-thought.

i'm literally a grandfather. like chief dan george as old lodge skins in little big man.

lucid dreaming is not wild if love is not absolutely unconditional.

consider silence is the wildest.

they say the louder the thought, the more materially inferior it is.

i like saturdays.

i like my sunday being saturday.

life is like a roller coaster of omnipotent awareness being self-aware.

every one is the buddha of one's own universe.

why weep or slumber america, every one a buddha.

"Half of what I say is meaningless

But I say it just to reach you, Julia"

juliet as buddha.

romeo as empire.

let's not argue about who killed who.

the empire apologizes.

Let Atman Be Brahman

If awareness is the sea and being is the waves then self-awareness is the surf.

This is your brain. This is your brain believing

it’s the source of consciousness. Materialism is an awful drug.

On the other hand, as it is, if the universe is in consciousness

as it appears to be, and the brain is in the universe naturally,

then consciousness is in the absolutely non-conceptual noumenon.

This is still my latest mantra. People don’t have consciousness;

consciousness has people. Only the absolute has consciousness.

JMJ

Emotions smoke like love smothered in thought. Either one sees through the thought or attaches to it. Or both.

Where there’s emotion there is consciousness fucking with the mind. It’s just the functioning of self-awareness, Jake.

The stars are in our DNA, Horatio. Maya is the plan, Stan.

One is either never born or busy being unborn, Bob. This is Clem Fandango, can you hear me?

Untitled Paraverse

One not busy dreaming lucidly is busy being someone else's dream. Great writers steal.

I’ve pretty much said it all but I am writing more.

I know I’m not the body but I’m eating three meals a day.

I know I’m not the mind but this week I’m reading The Winter's Tale and writing the same old paraverse.

If meditating doesn’t feel like love you’re either still attaching to some thought or just don’t know what love feels like.

I like this metrically. There’s like thirteen iambs in a row followed by a string of seven one-word single stresses.

I write until the writing says it over and then footnote these latest revelations. Lastly is the title. The end.

footnotes

Self-awareness is not registered by the senses. Or the sense of self-awareness is love.

Everyone’s gotta serve some billionaire

Dude, if 2020 was like jaws, 2021 is like jumping the shark.

Or so I’m told up here on cold mountain.

The bbc 1981 the winter’s tale act 1 scene 2 is really good. The trio of actors, jeremy kemp, david burke, and robert stephens are true pros. This scene is like birth of the monster called thought and their expressions show it. #nondualshakespeare

I visited monument valley in 2006. it lives up to the hype.

It's not as much brain-washing, as much as it is dream-rinsing, friends. like recreating memory.

Postmodernism was pandora's box.

Welcome to postmemory.

Apres moi, chop wood and carry water. Don’t worry about the future. 

Because memory is never a true picture of the past, it can be changed.

Lucid dreaming is all about recreating memory. This is deep marketing 101.

Empires guard the past.

Memory is the battlefield.

Believe no memory.

It wasn't as much what I believed as I believed what I remembered.

Memory is at best unreliable and at worst not mine.

It's all virtual reality and only I decide what's virtuous and not.